Artist: Billie Eilish
Song Title: Everything I Wanted
This is song is her first single released after her debut album “WHEN WE ALL FALL ASLEEP WHERE DO WE GO“. “everything i wanted” sees Billie recalling a nightmare she experienced where she committed suicide and saw all her friends and fans turn their backs on her. The song also showcases Billie’s strong relationship with her brother FINNEAS, as he’s the one she goes to for support when dealing with these types of problems.
The Nightmare story narrated by Billie Eilish:
Pretty much that whole song is about me and Finneas’ relationship as siblings. We started writing it because I literally had a dream that I killed myself and nobody cared and all of my best friends and people that I worked with basically came out in public and said, like, “Oh, we never liked her.” In the dream, the fans didn’t care. The internet shit on me for killing myself, all this stuff, and it really did mess me up.
I mean, the message behind the song is like […] my brother is my best friend, and I have these dreams and these things happen, and no matter what happens, he’s gonna always be there for me, and it’s the same the other way around.